I love writing and I already mentioned this many times. It helps me to deal with my feelings and thoughts. When I feel bad I grab a pen and start. Sometimes I just write what comes in my head and sometimes I write a poem.
Writing is such a huge part of me and who I am but none of my friends understand it. Sometimes I feel so alone because I have no one to share my passion with. No one knows about this blog because they wouldn’t understand what it means to me and they would probably make fun of me for the things I write.
Everything I write is so personal I don’t even want them to read it. I have already told you so many things I would never tell them because the wouldn’t understand. In everything I write is a hidden message because I write about how I feel. It is a piece of my soul. Not just the post on my blog but also the things I write in my journal, which my friends do read. They never seem to notice.
Yesterday for example I suddenly felt really bad in school. I took my pen and started writing. I couldn’t concentrate on class because of all the things going on in my head made me want to cry. I don’t even know why. I wrote four whole pages in my journal. I just wrote what came into my mind and I actually cam up with some great metaphors. But I am getting off point. I wrote about how I feel and nothing is more relieving than doing that. I actually got some stupid comments from my classmates for doing it. They don’t mean it as something mean. They just don’t understand why I always write.
I feel like because no one understands what writing means to me they don’t know the real me. I would do anything to find a friend I could talk to like I talk to everyone through my posts. I would love to talk to someone who feels the same way about writing as I do.
I want to end this post with an extract I came up with when I was feeling bad
Maybe I can compare how I feel with a sunny day that is although the sun is shining freezing cold. If you don’t put enough protection on against the cold you will freeze to death. I am the only one who doesn’t have the protection. I am the only one freezing to death and no one seems to notice.
Just a blank space