I want to meet new people but new people don’t want to meet me
Wherever I go the thing I am most excited about is meeting new people. Whether it’s on the internet or in real life. I always think that today is going to be the day I will meet someone new and become friends with them. It never happens. New people just don’t want to meet me. In the end I always see every one having fun with each other and I am there in the corner wishing to be one of them.
Sometimes I feel like people don’t want to meet me because of the way I look. Because I hide my hair and don’t wear shirt and tight girl clothes but then on the other side out here in the blogosphere no one know how I look and I still feel the same. I really want to do a collaboration with other bloggers but I feel like whenever I ask no one answers. A lot of people write about their blogging friends and I feel like the outsider.
I feel like that random human being that no one wants to talk to.
Even lots of my old friends seem to forget about me. I feel like there is no one out there who is like me. I feel like I am misplaced, like I don’t fit in. I always tell myself that if the people I care about don’t accept me the way I am they are not worth caring about. But it is way more easier to tell myself that than actually doing it.
I don’t know why I feel that way and I am probably making all of this up in my head. This post must sound so desperate. Sometimes I feel like if I would suddenly die the only once who would notice and be sad about it would be my family and I hate myself for feeling that way. I wish I would have someone I could open up about all of this. I used to have a friend who I could talk about all of this in the US. She was a exchange student too and I really miss her. We barely talk anymore.
I choose to end my posts with wishing everyone Lots of Love because I think everyone needs some love sometimes and I think I could use some really much right now.
Lots of Love
Just A Blank Space