I know, I know. I am talking way to much about my time abroad. Yesterday I told you guys about how much I miss my host family. If you missed that post you can read it here.
Later that day I got to skype with my host sister and I thought talking to her would make me feel better but it didn’t. Probably because she rarely talked to me and was too busy on her phone. What really hurt me was that she didn’t even listen to me when I told her how much I miss her and instead was telling me about other exchange students she would like to stay with her and the family.
While I was gone so many things changed and it is not the same with my friends as it used to be. Sometimes I feel like they live in a complete different world than I do. They don’t need me anymore. But now that I have been gone from the US for even longer the people I learned to love there seem to fade away too. It makes me feel so worthless and easily to replace.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I don’t fit in anywhere. I feel like I missed the train everyone took and now I am standing, all on my own, on a confusing big train station and don’t know what to do next.
Lots of Love
Just A Blank Space