Today I finally took the theoretical drivers test I tried to not take for so long. I think I was too afraid of failing that I didn’t want to take it. I practiced a lot the last couple of weeks. I thought I knew all the questions but turns out I don’t.
I don’t even know why I am making this such huge of a deal but I think because this was the first serious test I took I pressured myself too much. I think I thought that if I fail that test I will fail the next two years of school and the special exams I have to take at the end.
The next two years will be so important. They will determind the grades I will graduate with. I am so afraid of failing because everyone expects me to do good. I don’t even know why I feel like this because I always have been decent at school. Why do I pressure myself so much?
The thing that annoys me the most about failing that stupid test is that it costs way too much money to take it and that I know I could have passed it if I would have gotten better questions. All my friends got the easy questions and of course I got the hard ones. I almost cried. I felt so bad and my classmates didn’t make it any easier than making fun of me for failing.
Lots of Love
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