But it is not just the fact that I realized that. It is also because so many thinks changed. My elementary school got torn down and is being rebuild, the library got reorganized and all those things I loved as a child are gone. The giant map of the world, the stuffed animal and the shelf completely overloaded with books. All gone.
This week I talked to my old math teacher and she referred to me as an adult. In German language you have two different words for “you”. One is used if you talk to a friend or a kid and one when you talk to someone who is an adult and someone you respect. It was really weird.
And then there is the fact that I am hopefully getting my drivers licence on Wednesday next week, which makes me feel even older.
In a little more than six months I will turn 18 and officially become an adult. I don’t want to grow up and have a lot of responsibilities. I already have to think what I want to do after school but I am not ready to be old.
My childhood is over and I have to accept that.
Lots of Love
Just A Blank Space